IS EVERYTHING RUINED??

Posted by Chantz , Wednesday, October 19, 2011 2:49 PM

So, clearly sex does ruin a friendship.


You can’t have sex with someone more than once without developing feelings for that person.

Mr M said a seed was planted when we slept together, and no I’m not pregnant, but now we have feelings for each other, but I’ve always had feelings for him. We decided not to ever sleep together again, as it over complicated things.

So now we have this dysfunctional relationship thing going. If you see us somewhere you would think were dating, but were not… We miss each other and he has told me on quite a few occasions that he loves me… The only thing is, He doesn’t love me the way I love him.

I love him in a; I want to be with you forever way, he loves me in I can share everything with you, you are my new best friend way…

He confuses the living daylights out of me… I just want to be with him every second of the day.

When he doesn’t send me his random extremely weird messages, I feel annoyed…
I’m not the girl that usually feels like this, I hate being all loveable and shit.

I just really want to know where I stand...


Just saying...

Posted by Chantz , Tuesday, September 27, 2011 9:47 AM

You can't ruin a friendship with sex, that's like trying to ruin ice cream with chocolate sprinkles...

I KILLED THE PROM QUEEN

Posted by Chantz 9:02 AM

New day, new mistakes...


So... yesterday was one big F*ck up... I always get blamed for everything that goes wrong at our offices. My bosses have taking it upon themselves to be my "parents" I get lectured if I colour my hair, get punished if I don’t do my work and "grounded"! LIKE WTF IS UP WITH THAT???


And MR M. is trying not to "bug" me so often at work anymore? Hes random ramblings are the only things that get me through the day! From talking about Rainbow monkeys with machine guns and brain farts to why a lollipop is called a lollipop!


Hes a fan of I KILLED THE PROM QUEEN, so he asked me to draw a their one album cover for him…


Its taking me forever, but I want it to be perfect, If I have to start over 10times I will.





THIS?? What is that suppose to mean?

Posted by Chantz , Monday, September 26, 2011 2:06 PM

Thanks to my wonderful friends, (note the sarcasm in my tone of text) I decided to tell Mr M how I feel. But let’s just say that I am more confused now, than what I was before the feelings speech.



2weeks ago he told me that he is falling in love with me, so the slow responder that I am I only told him this weekend that I feel the same way.

Hes response was: “Why are you only telling me now, why did I have to say it alone?” – I mean really dude? Be happy I’m telling you????


Then later on I was told that if we can make “THIS” work, we will have a tighter bond then what couples or even best friends have??? Now please explain to me, what the hell does “THIS” mean?

Follow your heart or your head????

Posted by Chantz , Tuesday, September 20, 2011 4:52 PM

So why do good girls like bad guys?
I had this question for a real long time
I've been a bad boy and it's plain to see
So why do good girls fall in love with me?
-Falling in Reverse


On a lighter note! Im getting a new phone! Whoo Hoo!!

Recapping my love life - or lack there of.

Posted by Chantz , Monday, September 19, 2011 5:12 PM

In the last few months quite a few things have happened.



1. I broke up with my boyfriend of 5 years, the reason: I don’t want to commit. Yes I know, you’re probably thinking: “You only realise that after 5years??? Really? “
2. Hooked up with a bunch of retards; no really…
3. Made friends with my first love again, and yes, I know, that’s not a clever plan, but who the hell cares what you think in any case.
4. Went to a wedding with my first love.
5. Ended up being friends with benefits! I’ve got needs to!
6. And Last but not least fell in love with him.


So from now on the ex will be referred to as my Mr M. I thought me of all people would be against love, but not when it comes to him. We broke up about 5 years ago, and we might have had the worst relationship ever, BUT we were teenagers. He doesn’t know how I feel about him; we made a promise that we will not be more then friends.


I WANT, I WANT, I WANT!!!!

Posted by Chantz , Tuesday, August 16, 2011 10:18 AM





OH HOW I MISS

Posted by Chantz , Thursday, August 11, 2011 2:04 PM

YOU