I feel so alone...

Posted by Chantz , Monday, March 29, 2010 12:43 PM

I have come to the realization that human beings are a bunch of vain, shallow snobs…


A while ago I had two Facebook pages, Well I only started of with one, but one was for my modeling and the other my private life, where my personal friends were on, on that’s what I thought they were.

I had a msg everyday from people, invites to go to parties and events, I felt like I was on top of the world, I was even a FTV Ambassador…

1 Year later, I am about 9kgs heavier, though you cant see it, just I know because I cant fit into a 32 anymore, 34 is starting to sit too tight… I don’t get invited to Events and Parties anymore, and I feel like I don’t have as many friends as I use to have…

Why is that I wonder???

Is it the fact that I don’t look good in little mini cocktail dresses anymore?? Or that I don’t hang out with models and celebrities anymore?? Which by the way, they are not that interesting as you think in any case…

Or am I just a mean person that people don’t like??? I mean, I don’t think ive changed that much in the last year, Have I???

So now I am sitting at work puzzled by why I feel so alone???

Mature vs. (Im)Mature

Posted by Chantz , Wednesday, March 24, 2010 5:09 PM

You cant stay young forever, but you can be immature for the rest of your life...


Think I might be strting to go through my Quarter life Crisis. :)
But its ok, I'll get through it. :)

Guess whos Back...

Posted by Chantz , Wednesday, March 17, 2010 4:39 PM

After a weeks leave, I actually feel ready for the office again…NOT

When I walked in this morning I got that feeling that I just had to turn around and walk out, but no, I stayed, against my better knowledge. Oi…

Missed my internet a lot though!!! Should really invest in getting internet at home.

Anyway!!

It’s almost weekend!! YAY!!! And Happy St Paddy’s Day!!!


Oh, and I got another Award!!!! 


It’s funny how you something so little can bring a big smile to a person face!!!!

The 2 very sweet ladies known as Em and Johana nominated me for the Happy Award!

So The rules are:

1. Thank who ever nominated you!
Thanks Em and Johana!!!!

2. List things that make you Happy
My very cute sometimes retarded boyfriend,
Yummy Food,
Biltong,
Knowing that I am living the life I want,
Afrikaans Rock Music (Local is lekker),
Shoes… Lots of them,
Hand Bags,
Writing my blog,
Photography,
Art,
And Reading about all the interesting people…

3. Tag some fellow Bloggers who are happy or who make you Happy!

Gonna do some playing with my camera tonight, I am in the mood to start doing Shoots again... Who knows maybe on Saturday; for now, I am just gonna have to be happy with self portraits.

ITS MY LIFE, AND I WANT A HAPPY ONE!!!

Posted by Chantz , Monday, March 8, 2010 1:14 PM

When I was at school, I was always the one that wanted to please everyone, and keep everyone happy, at school it might have made you a lot of friends, but in the real world, life doesn’t work that way.



I found that out the hard way, I am so used to doing what I thought other people would like and accept me for; that I never for one moment though of what I really want???


I was so used to doing what other people thought best that I did not know how to identify what I wanted to do. The responses I usually get is that either “The market is flooded”, or “Oh, where have I heard that before”, and my personal favorite, “Lets talk in a months time; you will have changed your mind by then.” You know what, that is the reason I change my mind the whole time, because I don’t want the shitty office position or that “respectable” sales position, the normal 9 – 5 just does not work for me!!

So heres the thing, I will study further, and NO I am not going to study sales or accounting, I will study Graphic Design and Advertising, and keep my job for another year, don’t think I will die of working here, might get locked up for murdering some one though. Then I will make a success of my self!!! I will be the best damn advertiser and Designer you have ever seen ;). Then after a few years of wreaking havoc on earth with my weird ideas, hee hee, I will open my coffee shop!!! My “New York” coffee shop…

I will stop worrying about peoples opinions of me! This is me, and I am happy they way I am!!!

You know why I am going to do all this???


BECAUSE I CAN, AND IT MAKES ME HAPPY!

Yummy Rugby Boys

Posted by Chantz , Friday, March 5, 2010 5:13 PM

A very good reason to watch Rugby...
Luke Watson (Ex Stormer Captain)

francois steyn (Ex Shark)

Jaques Fourie (Stormer)

Percy Montgomery (Ex Stormer Player)

Daniel Carter (Crusaderds)


OMW!!! MY FIRST AWARD!!!

Posted by Chantz , Thursday, March 4, 2010 12:37 PM

OMW, I got my first blogger award!!! Thanks so much to  Andre for giving me the beautiful blogger award!!!
Thanks so much Andre!!! You made my day, not that I had the faintest idée what a blog award was... oops... Im new you know!!!

 

So the Rules are: here are the rules that i must adhere to as a recipient of said award…

1. thank the person who nominated me for this award… check.
2. copy the award & place it on my blog… check.
3. link to the person who nominated me for this award… check.
4. share 7 interesting things about myself
5. nominate 7 other beautiful bloggers

7 NON INTERESTING THINGS ABOUT ME...

* I hate eating biscuits with my coffee, just the idée of a soggy biscuit makes me feel sick. :(
* If im not in bed by 22:00 on a weeknight I am the most moody person the next day!!! Don’t keep me away from my sleep!!!
* I am a compulsive do-er (Don’t know if that word even exists), if I get a idée in my head that I want to do something, I do it, without thinking about it!!!
* Im Turning 21 in a few weeks, and getting a tattoo!!!
* I live with my Grandparents and my boyfriend lives there too.
* I hate vegetables
* I get annoyed with people very easy!!! Im only a people’s person when I want to be. :)




2. Albert Retief Blog
3. Dear Diary
4. Its Em (Which has been nominated already, but she can have 2)
5. No One Reads The Copy - I think she might be my double - Love her Blog
6. Jbe Photography - I love her photos
7. Venna Su Photography











100 DAYS TO GO!!!

Posted by Chantz , Tuesday, March 2, 2010 10:17 AM

Today marks 100days to the World Cup Kick off.

Its time to see how much still needs to be done; and how much has been done???
Today the star newspaper is revealing the 100 things that still need to be done.
There are things like the disaster management centre,  fixing the traffic lights and planting grass at some stadiums.

Then the biggest of the all is the Mbombela Stadium is Nelspruit that will only be finished a few weeks before the kick of, which cuts it a bit close. The Road to the Royal Bafokeng Stadium is also not complete nor is the Gautrain, though it is said that it will be ready.

For the Fans though it means only a 100 Days to go for kick off!!!

The only problem for the fans is the lack of enthusiasm for the World Cup or our National team, Bafana Bafana

Bleh...

Posted by Chantz , Monday, March 1, 2010 4:45 PM

This past weekend has been fun; Jody bought me "The Llewellyn Tarot deck" FINALLY!!!! I have been throwing hints that I want them for a while now. :) Now, just need to learn how to read them.
Mondays aren't always so bad! Ive had a pretty mellow one today, which is actually nice once in a while.

This morning I woke up with a bit of a cold, and by the looks of it, I think I passed it on to Jody… Ooops
Anyways, that’s pretty much the only interesting things that I can think of writing today…